2026 a Preview

Hello to 2026!! 

Each year, I like to preview the year ahead (a tradition I started over 12 years ago), and here is what I am thinking...

2026:

* Finances: With the increases in the cost of living, I am no different than the rest of regualr Americans, having too much month and just enough funds. I want to pay off one debt in 2025, and also increase our cash stash for those emergencies that come everytime you aren't ready. Day 2 and I'm 4 new tires in, thanks adulting!

* People that I know and love will pass away or suffer through illness. And it will also be my part to love and support friends and family who will experience loss and sickness this year. A prayer and kind word or deed, goes a long way in the dark days of grief. I will continue to send cards of sympathy which is becoming a lost art. 

* At work: A change is gonna come. I don't know who, what, when, where and why. Wait, I do know why! Thank you Trump adminstration booooo! I am allowing the year to unfold and I am opening my mind to opportunities.

* At church: My spirtual growth is not as great as in previous years. But my acts of faith and service are always growing. It's a season to lean on what I know and have been taught through God's Word. In this year I do pray our church find a full-time minister, it's been a long journey. God always uses our little for his great purpose. 

* At home and fostering: We had 2 placements in 2025. Each around the same age, but different in circumstances. I can't put into words how much we have learned. I have lots of teaching and education experience. I had no mom experience and that is something I had to learn with a quickness. We are grateful to share love and stabiliy through this journey. It is a journey though and the destination is not clear. 2026 be kind to the foster families, including our little family. 

* 41 will come and with it hopefully less burdens. 

For 14 out of 15 years  I have closed the same way, so here we go:) Take care, love others well and bring joy with you all 2026!

Now with all of that said I will say this.....2026 is a completely unknown entity. Sure, I know some things but they are so tiny compared to what I have no idea about. The key is to hold fast to God, have faith and grace, love my family and friends, and be the very best Sabrina Stewart Melvin that I can be.....that should not be too hard ( I am kidding) it will probably take me 365 days to kind of get it right!

39 was

 39 was starting fostering...

I knew a decent amount about foster care. I am a counselor at heart, and Tallahassee has a strong and supportive foster community.  Yet, Stephen and I definitely learned SO much in the foster process. There are classes. Homework. Discussions. Paperwork. Fingerprints. Support Groups. Readings. And the list goes on. I could not have done it without Stephen and his loving heart for others. Together we started the training part of fostering. We got our first placement. We were "schooled" on being parents. I am grateful for the journey and what 40 will bring as we continue to foster in love and hope.

39 was work woes...
As we entered January 2025, it became abundantly clear that the new leadership in this country, was and is not on board with supporting students from low-income backgrounds. As government spending cuts loomed, it was the most frustrating thing to see the wealthy be on the attack against the poor. As a grant worker, my job and the work that we do has been belittled and ignored all for the sake of those who already have a leg up, and have the privilege to not even see it. We press on doing the work in the pre-college access space, but even as I type this, I am fully aware that the future of my job rests partly on a man who is proud of his vindictive streak and thinks equity is a cuss word. It will be left to see how it all will shake out. I am preparing for all possibilities.

39 was understanding myself more...

I will truly say that during the 39th year, there were many times that I was able to really reflect on myself. Job opportunities that were not the best fit. Social situations that actually bring joy and not just another thing to add to the list. Even in fostering, learning and making adjustments, for the reality, not just the dream, if that makes sense. I can say, I know myself a lot better. My gifts and my struggles. It feels good.

39, you were a teacher in many ways. Reminding me to step back and check my lack of faith and worries. You also made me smile, increased my friendships, and added to my determination. Not bad. 40, you can be a banner year. A milestone year. I'm ready!

Fostering Chapter 1 Updates

 *I started out thinking this could be a FB post, but writing is my therapy so it got longer than first expected.

Long Post Alert, Vulnerable Post Alert

We have had some changes in our foster journey. Chapter 1 has come to a close. I can’t go into most of it, but we are at peace as changes have been made and the family is reunified in love, safety, stability and real change.

I love that our network of friends and family ask us questions about the process. I hope that our answers are helpful, true and might make you consider supporting foster care in your local area. So, in that light here are the most common questions we get, and my answers.

1.      How can you give them back? I would fall in love right away and not be able to do that.

It’s a complex answer but part of it is, I am trained in Elementary Education, with a Masters in School Counseling and a certificate in Marriage and Family Therapy. I spent 6 years in school learning kids and adolescents. I know in my brain that the best place for children is with their birth family, when the family is loving, safe, stable and healthy. I ALSO know that is not the case in many homes. The next best place for children is a loving home with trained adults (in trauma care), who have open hearts, faith ( for us this is key but might not be for all), and actually “see” children and want to help provide the best family they can.

So, we can love our foster kids and also understand on a fundamental level, that the placement might not last but the love will. To me, it’s just something you either can do, or you can’t do. I don’t EVER suggest going against your instinct, if you can’t see it, then please support in another way.

2.      Doesn’t it break your heart? The family lost them, how can you not be mad or angry with the parents?

Before we went to our first training, during one of many conversations and prayers, Stephen looked me in the eye and said, “Babe, are you sure? You are going to get soo attached to the kids and be upset when they leave. Are you sure?” And I remember what I said then and I would say it now. It’s ok. It’s ok to have your heart break or be sad. I am a grown woman with many blessings, and I have the life skills to have heart break and be ok in time. But many kids don’t and I would rather be sad and know that we did our best for a child. I would rather shed tears and be confused sometimes, if that helps a child to be able to have a fair shot at this thing called life.

From that point on, we started training etc and the rest is history.

*There is SO much to do in foster life, for us at least, there is not a ton of time to be mad and resentful with the parents. So many of us would have a different life if born to different people. So that perspective helps.

3.      What next? Is Foster child #2 on the way? Do you and Stephen want to have a baby? Adopt?

So, because life does whatever it wants, let me share this. At the start of the year just as we got licensed, my job, with a federal Dept of Education grant program supporting first-generation college students with income restrictions, was threatened (is still unsure in all honesty). It was a mess, I was stressed, and yet we were so close to starting fostering! Life is both sour and sweet… ya know. Anyway, I won’t even waste my time explaining how grants like mine change cycles of generational poverty and provide access to needed post-secondary outcomes. I will say that I need a bit of time to be laser focused on my professional future. I have some conferences to attend, and professional mapping to consider. So, we will take about 2 months of a “pause” so I can get some things settled.

In June, we will be open to our next placement😊 Along that line, family planning will take its own course. If baby Melvin ever comes to be…ya’ll know me, you would know😊 The only thing for certain is if our path were to have to include IVF etc. that is not the path for our family. So that’s really all I can say about that. Oh, but if a foster to adopt chapter of our life comes to be one day, we are open to that.

4.      This last thing is just a message from us to you. You all who love us, and lift us in prayer, and care for us, and have given us the tools to be able to become first time  parents through fostering. Little lady enjoyed everything, and we sent her with some items like clothes, books, toys, toiletries, diapers etc, as she resettles back home. We have the other donations and gifts that you all have given and will be so happy and way more ready for Chapter 2 this summer and beyond. Thank you for all that you mean to us. In this book called life, I would not change a thing😊

2025 a Preview

 Welcome to 2025!! After 12 consecutive years, somehow I did not post a 2024 Preview last year...oooops.

Each year, I like to preview the year ahead (a tradition I started years ago), and here is what I am thinking...

2025:

* Finances: Just going back to the simple things, cash vs credit. Saving vs spending. 2024 seemed to be so expensive, 2025 take it easy please lol

* People that I know and love will pass away or suffer through illness. And it will also be my part to love and support friends and family who will experience loss and sickness this year. A prayer and kind word or deed, goes a long way in the dark days of grief. This one, every year this one both breaks me and builds me up.

* At work: Sigh. Let me translate that. I love what I get to do with first gen students. I know I am making a difference. With the shifting political landscape, hard sigh, it is my prayer that programs like mine don't get cut or destroyed. I do not know. I will work each day and commit to reminding others of the importance of students on the margins. We should hear back about the 2nd grant I wrote to expand our program, in June or July. However, again it all depends on what pressures mount in DC. 

* At church: In simple words, may God continue to allow me to use the gifts he has given me. Knowledge, compassion, a willing spirit, and being able to "see" the need. I am able to help be the voice of our Women's Ministry and that blesses my life, as we bless others.

* At home: In my marriage allow grace and time to do its work. There are many things that could shift for us in 2025. All of them require waiting and that is difficult.

* I will be 40 this year! WOW! 4 fun trips during the 40th year? I don't know but I do spy a girl's trip to NYC in December 2025. And my brain is thinking of an Orlando birthday dinner with many family and friends in April. When I think 40, I would just like to have my people with me and break bread, I've simplified lately. 

For 13 out of 14 years  I have closed the same way, so here we go:) Take care, love others well and Happy 2025!

Now with all of that said I will say this.....2025 is a completely unknown entity. Sure, I know some things but they are so tiny compared to what I have no idea about. The key is to hold fast to God, have faith and grace, love my family and friends, and be the very best Sabrina Stewart Melvin that I can be.....that should not be too hard ( I am kidding) it will probably take me 365 days to kind of get it right!

38 was

 Hi!

I am detouring from my usual birthday "year in review" to focus instead on one theme that has played an important though quiet role in my 38th year, and that is "mothering".

Mothering as defined by me, is all the things that encompass being a mother, yet can be used to describe a person who is not a mother but displays and lives the characteristics. Got it? It will make more sense as I write, I hope.

So when it comes to life I have a simple prayer ( I have prayed it off and on for many years now), that I would be able to be a Godly wife and mother. I have many other goals and wonderful things in my life, but the consistent one for many years now has been this. It's not fancy, and it leaves a lot of room for interpretation (aka God's will)

I both do and don't know why my biological clock was ticking hard this year. My loved ones do not pressure me about babies, and pregnancy etc. Because of my casual style many people think I am younger than I am, so it's not this verbalized pressure from anyone. And I really appreciate that.

So this past year I have been gaining a better understanding of mothering as relates to me. In this past year, I have not gotten to "mother" as in maternity photo shoots and baby naming, but something else beautiful has emerged.

First, we have our college "kids". In the Fall, 3 freshman FAMU students started attending our church, and one of them is a friend from home. Sundays and Wednesday became car rides of life talks, and Wal-Mart trips, and prayer requests and coming to care for each one of them in a special way. I skipped right over babies and into young adults lol. 

Then, at work again and again but especially lately I have had students with hard life situations and there goes the "mothering" again. In depth talks about majors, and life goals, and loss. Literally taking college tours with a student to help him achieve his dreams and aspirations. I have part-time staff who are in college, I boosted up one during an abusive relationship and was a steady presence as she returned back to school. I encouragred another to not let her "gap year" become more than 1 year, and she will happily be starting FSU this Fall:)

It's been this beautiful blend of having a loving heart, and a personality that "sees" people. Mothering landed in my lap in the year that I needed it most. 

Life and family planning continues, Stephen and I have options in this coming year and beyond, and we pray that we will be able to enjoy the next season of marriage as parents. There are still different possibilities but I will honestly say, off the bat that does not incude IVF. That is something we agreed upon even before we got married. There are MANY children here and now who need loving, stable homes. We have some ideas and look forward to seeing what is meant for our family in the future. At this moment we can honestly say we do not know.  Exciting times and times for prayer:)

38 was a good year. I am grateful for this "little life" and the love, all the love that I get to experience.

Happy 39th birthday to me!

2023 a review

 Hi journal!

 We only meet up a couple of times a year, but I still value this space to let go of some of the ponderings of a Sabrina:)

2023 What a year!! It was a lot of private and personal things but it was all an adventure and a learning process. So I think I'll just get right into it.

1. 2023 was difficult with timing. Since I met my husband, we have schedules that did not match. Night shifts, or early morning shifts, weekends etc. It was just a part of that season of his life. I'm a pretty independent person and overall I was able to adapt and adjust. But it does start to wear on you after a time, and so around March I put a nightly reminder on my phone to pray and ask God to bring the right opportunities that would align our schedules better. As we approached September, some nights I had given up hope it was going to happen, but God is always faithful in his timing. Stephen has a new job, much better hours and it made for a less hurried Thanksgiving and Christmas. I am so very grateful!

2. 2023 was my rediscovering Taylor Swift era. Yes, at 38 I am back on the Taylor Swift bandwagon. Not a super fan but as I have enjoyed the Eras tour movie, I have found she is spot on with her lyrics about the eras of being a girl/woman (at least for me). It's this puzzle of being honest about our feelings, allowing ourselves to be happy, bubbly, and giddy, and not giving up on love (family, friendships, relationships etc). So currently on my repeat list are Miss Americana and the Heartbreak Prince, Enchanted, Tears Ricochet, 22 and Vigilante Sh**. 

3. 2023 was recognition at work and milestones. This summer marked 5 years that I have worked at TCC. It feels fast yet full of learning. I'm still so grateful for the season and decisions that bought me to TCC. It has been a great fit for me! I have high hopes for my future there and I just cherish the people, the opportunities and what the future could bring. My hope is that I can continue to provide for students and be a knowledgeable and kind educator and leader. I am continuing to grow and stretch but that is a good thing, on most days lol.

4. 2023 was finding balance in all things. So in general, I am the one who does the most. I call my friends first. I plan the things, I organize the events etc. But this year I tried to find balance before I burned myself out. I learned that quiet moments of reflection are perfection. I was reminded that as adults the minute you take a financial win, a financial loss is coming around the bend. Everytime! Looking at you pay increase, followed by burst pipe, owning taxes and husband's car troubles. I was reminded constantly that friends and family all go through stuff and you just have to "let them alone" (as they say in the country). The constant people have stayed and the inconsistent have floated on and the best part is I didn't take it personally this year. People are just doing the best that they can.

So yeah, as you can see, 2023 was a year! I don't have a 2024 preview this year. 2024 is going to do whatever it wants to do lol:) 

For 13 years  I have closed the same way, so here we go! May 2024 be a year of blossoming and blessings! 

Now with all of that said I will say this.....2024 is a completely unknown entity. Sure, I know some things but they are so tiny compared to what I have no idea about. The key is to hold fast to God, have faith and grace, love my family and friends, and be the very best Sabrina Stewart Melvin that I can be.....that should not be too hard ( I am kidding) it will probably take me 365 days to kind of get it right!

2023 a Preview

Welcome to 2023!!

I am really liking New Years Day being on Sunday. Fresh day, fresh week, fresh year, just newness of 2023. I am in a bookclub that is reading Little Women and its just been such a simple, refreshing way to end '22 and start '23! I hope I can find more simple, small treasures scattered throughout this new year.

Each year, I like to preview the year ahead (a tradition I started years ago), and here is what I am thinking...

2023:

* Starting with finances. Well, life happens you know lol. That just means that AC problems, and car troubles, and just the cost of living life can really make budgeting hard. However, we are ready for a new year. I am refocused on spending wisley and saving for our family and our future. I am super excited beause I got a new car in 2022, and that was something we had budgeted for and accomplished! I am also mega thankful that my remaining student loan balance was forgiven through Public Service Loan Forgiveness this year! There are no words, just a humble and grateful heart:) 

* People that I know and love will pass away or suffer through illness. And it will also be my part to love and support friends and family who will experience loss this year. A kind word or deed, goes a long way in the dark days of grief.

* In my work life, I hope to continue to bring creativity, decicaiton and passion to my job. I really do find it so interesting to help along the college access pipeline. Different opportunities had come my way in 2022, but I am grateful for exactly what I am doing right now. 

* In my Christian life, the theme is serving others. I don't know what it will look like exactly this year, but I do feel like the Lord continues to provide an abundance of opportunities. To have a spirit like Barnabas from the book of Acts is something I hope to grow into.

* In married life, I want to continue to strive for growth in prayer and communication. We have a wonderful marraige and I do not take it for granted:) However, I was single for way longer than I have been married, so that means I have room to grow. I am so thankful for my Stephen who balances me and most importantly always is showing me and teaching me things in Christ. Our scripture talks and questions are good for my spirit.

* I will be 38 this year, and I don't know why but that feels important. So I guess I better make it that way then?

* Travel plans for this year are unsure. I will wait and see as the year goes on, but I love a good trip so just give me some warning and I will be happy to go along lol. I still yearn to see the cherry blossoms in full bloom in D.C.

For 12 years  I have closed the same way, so here we go:) Take care, lead with love and Happy 2023!

Now with all of that said I will say this.....2023 is a completely unknown entity. Sure, I know some things but they are so tiny compared to what I have no idea about. The key is to hold fast to God, have faith and grace, love my family and friends, and be the very best Sabrina Stewart Melvin that I can be.....that should not be too hard ( I am kidding) it will probably take me 365 days to kind of get it right!

36 was

I look back and see that I have not done a birthday reflection post since I was 33! Can I blame it on the general COVID upheaval of life? Possibly. Anyway, here we are, so let's look back, shall we?

36 was marriage...
The best, sweetest, and most educational part of being 36 was getting married in October. It has been the best because I love my husband and he loves me and we both love God and really try to serve others and grow. It's comforting and challenging, and I'm so thankful. It has been sweet because there are just moments in marriage that bring a smile, or laugh and those times of silliness are very, very sweet. And it has been educational because marriage is learning. You learn your spouse AND you learn yourself. I think the longer you were single the more you have to learn, and so it goes. It's all good, but there is a learning curve to creating a solid marriage. 

36 was project based...
As a busy, go, go, go kind of girl, I am well acquainted with projects. But 36 definitely took me to a brand new level. The Stewart/Melvin wedding had it's own email address and Google drive lol. But I loved it and thrived and sometimes think I could branch into wedding planning. There were also projects around the home, and a very fun outdoor project on the horizon. 

36 was grant life....

The grant was renewed for 5 more years and we hit the ground running. I love my job and students. I love the creativity I get to use and the impact we have on our community. I was not trained in grants but it has turned out to be one of the best calculated risks I took during this season of life.

37, I can't wait to meet you! 36, thank you for being the answer to prayer. 

And speaking of prayers, as I blow out the candles, I have a special, special birthday prayer as I enter 37. I can't share it, but my heart is hopeful and we will just take it one day at a time.

2021 a review and 2022 a preview

 Happy 2022!!

We are here in a fresh new year, and I am grateful and thankful. I am also very aware that to have a good life during these times (faith, family, housing, job, joy, etc) is a gift. 2021 was a banner year for me. A special year that will always hold some of my MOST precious memories! Stephen proposed to me and we got married in 2021! No one will ever totally know the prayer and time that worked together to form our relationship. 2021 will always be beautiful to me:)  

2021 also held more COVID news worldwide. Amazing news that my grant program was renewed for 5 more years. Lots of sweet time with family and friends during the season leading up to the wedding and then the holiday season. 2021 was quite a year especially because it also held a lot of loss and grief for many that I love. 

Each year, I like to preview the year ahead (a tradition I started years ago), and here is what I am thinking...

2022:

* Finances: Well, planning a wedding can really mess with a budget. So this is my year to rebalance. Stephen and I have a family budget that we will readjust as we enter 2022. I am thankful that he trusts me to have the detailed view of the budget while he has a big picture view. May our combined budgets flow together and may we be responsible and also giving. I like to think of it as paddling in the same boat, in sync. 

* People that I know and love will pass away or suffer through illness. And it will also be my part to love and support friends and family who will experience loss this year. A kind word or deed, goes a long way in the dark days of grief.  COVID variants are still here, so I am not even going to try and predict what the year will hold on that front. 

* In my professional life, I am thankful for my work and profession. We have 5 more years under the current grant and I want to pilot our program and grow it along the way. Work relationships with my colleagues and employees continue to be very important. I am not the best boss. I make mistakes for sure, but man I am really trying and open to growth.  I am not sure how much cookie baking I will do, but you know me, I am always dabbling in something lol. 

* As I walk in Christ, 2022 will hold Stephen and I working and serving together. Such an important part of our relationship!  I am beyond grateful for our church family here in town. It's also my prayer that our church be able to fill the vacant full-time minister position. 

* In married life, I want to enjoy my marriage and also strive to grow. Marriage holds a mirror up to yourself and shows you a reflection of many things. I want to strive to be the wife God has called me to be and truly enjoy the moments with Stephen. He helps me relax and I need that.  

* I will be 37 this year, and I can't really believe that, so I want to be the healthiest me I can be, especially as I age. 

* Travel plans for this year. I look forward to a work conference or two in different locations. I am sure Stephen and I will visit family. A girl's trip in the summer sounds fun! And then Stephen and I will plan a vacation or maybe anniversary trip who knows, later in the year.

For 11 years (11 YEARS!!)  I have closed the same way, so here we go:) I did tweak one thing lol.  I have real love for you all and hope you always know how much you mean to me. Happy 2022!

Now with all of that said I will say this.....2022 is a completely unknown entity. Sure, I know some things but they are so tiny compared to what I have no idea about. The key is to hold fast to God, have faith and grace, love my family and friends, and be the very best Sabrina Stewart Melvin that I can be.....that should not be too hard ( I am kidding) it will probably take me 365 days to kind of get it right!

A letter to Myself

 8-26-21

With 6 weeks until I get married, I wanted to write a letter to myself, before this amazing life change happens. This is just my chance to reflect, process, and save these thoughts for future times.

Dear Me,

 Eeeeeeek! How can it be that you and Stephen are getting married, so soon? The time both flies, and also has been very full of "life". I wanted to stop this evening and write to you, a girl who has definitely enjoyed life and taken time to smell the roses. 

I guess, I will start by saying, Thank You. I thank you for every experience, every trip, every story, and every fun adventure. I am so grateful for the variety of loving memories that you created. You loved life, and you embraced people, and you tried to serve others. It has been a wonderful combination, and I will always look back and appreciate that you did not sit by waiting for dreams to happen, you went out and lassoed those bad boys by the horns lol! You learned to treat yourself well, and the rest would fall into place. 

I also want to say that each moment of your life that is leading up to the new season of marriage, that each moment, blends together beautifully. The gorgeous smiles, and the sorrowful tears. There have been some bitter moments, but the sweet is overpowering, and together both are needed for a real life. I look back over this season and sum it up with, "God is good!"

You are many things Sabrina. Determined, a girl boss, fun, a traveler, ridiculous, a baker, a reader, a napper, a true friend, a growing Christian, and a lover of family. You will continue to grow in this next season, and discover even more about yourself. It is so great to have Stephen with me, to show me great love and also encourage me on towards growth.

It was sometimes difficult, when you felt like you were ready for love and a relationship but that you were also shy with guys. Hard combination! It will always be the surprise of your life, that the first man you ever approached, would end up being your future husband:) But I do not think it surprised God, because my prayers over the years had simplified, to a Godly man who was ready for commitment. All the rest did not compare to these two things. And that is what Stephen is, I mean who else watches "American Bible Challenge" with you on Netflix. lol. And who else spoke to you early on about how he was going to change your life, and be with you forever. I am so grateful. So very grateful.

I think to end it up, I will just say it has been wonderful! Jax, to Tally, to Athens, and back to Tally. Morning stocker at Old Navy to running a pre-college access grant. Beginners flights from Jax to ATL, then flights from NYC to Germany. A life full of amazing family, and then losing amazing family. ALL of the growth and ALL of the growing pains. I am so glad that you believed in yourself. I am so thankful that you marched to your own drum with boldness and also caring. I remember in our early 20's one day, driving around and during sunrise thinking, God that is what I want. I want to be as naturally beautiful as a sunrise. I want to shine. And I also realize that not everyone gets to witness sunrises, so that means my path is not going to match with everyone, but it will be perfect for me. And look where we are now. Many thanks girl!

Love ya a whole lot!

Sabrina M. Stewart

2020 a review and 2021 a preview

Written 1-2-21

Hello 2021:) 

The setting is a rainy, Saturday, the first Saturday of January. I love that I can be cozy in my home, reflecting on a New Year. A dream come true, home ownership:) You know there is so much to say about the year that was, 2020. I am not going to get into all of it. Here is the summary. March 2020 changed our lives forever. The COVID-19 pandemic swept though the world and our country. Changes, EVERYWHERE. Working from home, masks, social distancing, and all the far reaching impacts. The main word is loss, loss of life, loss of jobs, loss of stability, loss of hope. It was a whammy of a year.

Thankfully there is always a silver lining. The creativity, the community, the love, the faith, the babies, the marriages, and the slower pace. I got COVID and recovered and that by far is the biggest blessing of the year. Though I will say my smell and taste are still not what they used to be, odd stuff. Now, as always, I will preview some parts of a fresh new year. 2021 here we come, be kind and healing please!

2021:

* Finances: I have very recently gotten myself back on track with spending and saving. Last year was home expenses, and I was not nearly as careful of budgeting. I went over budget the last few months of 2020. But, a new year and in this case back to good habits. I have some important savings goals, so that will be my aim in 2021.

* People that I know and love will pass away or suffer through illness. In my opinion COVID is here through 2021. The vaccine is here, but I think we have 1 more year of pandemic precautions. I would cautiously think by Fall 2021, things would be more "normal" but we shall see.  The year has been summarized by so much loss, so being thoughtful about health is critical this year. 

* Side hustles will be minimum this year. My new job (started March 2020) is more than enough work for me during this season. 2021 will hold the question, will my grant program get refunded for the next 5 year cycle? A huge question that will have many consequences, but the answers will come by September 2021. It is stressful to work and wait, so this is an area where I need faith.

* In areas of faith, it has been an "interesting" year. Just a lot of adjustments at church etc. The year was full of trials, but God has promised when we are weak he is strong. I have been able to lead Wednesday night Ladies Bible class, through Zoom. A blessing that was unexpected but wonderful. The words of Mark 9:24 resonate so clearly with me in this season. “I do believe, but help me overcome my unbelief!” NLT

* Dating relationship:) Stephen and I will celebrate 2 years of dating in May. I have seen us both grow as we continue to build towards our future. I am very proud of him and thankful for his love and support. I am a stubborn thing sometimes, and he gives me balance and perspective. We enjoyed Thanksgiving and Christmas with family, and got a peek into what a future together would look like....a very good thing:) 

* I'll turn 36 in 2021. Yeah, and that's about it lol. 

* Travel plans for this year...I know laughable right? I don't have any big travel plans for 2021. I don't feel comfortable flying anywhere due to COVID, so if I do go somewhere, then it'll be in driving distance. This should also help with my savings and financial life, so in the end all is well. If I could go to a dream location though, I'd say take me to Hawaii! 

For 10 years I have closed the same way, so here we go:) Love you all from the bottom of my heart! Sending big hugs and sunshine smiles into your New Year.

Now with all of that said I will say this.....2021 is a completely unknown entity. Sure, I know some things but they are so tiny compared to what I have no idea about. The key is to hold fast to God, have faith and grace, love my family and friends, and be the very best Sabrina Maude Stewart that I can be.....that should not be too hard ( I am kidding) it will probably take me 365 days to kind of get it right!

Understanding the Preparation

 This year I welcome Thanksgiving, the first one in my new home. I get giddy just thinking about that statement. Especially considering what a year 2020 has been!

The guest list is small, but also just right. Thanksgiving with my parents and my boyfriend. Oh, then multiple family Zoom Thanksgiving video chats!! 

So tonight I'm doing preparation, cleaning, laundry, organizing, and planning. I'm walking in and out of rooms muttering to myself, "Now WHY did I come in here?" and also " Darn it, I forgot to put the lid down on the washer, an HOUR ago!" 

It flashed through my mind, that all this preparation, it is not burdensome, it actually is a joy. To have family to come, to have a home for them to stay. I am a blessed girl.

I then thought back to all the times that my grandparents would have family gatherings. Old homes, full to the brim of family. Those, "get in where you fit in" kind of gatherings. I appreciate the preparation so much more now. The tidy bathrooms, the clean crisp sheets, the full fridge, full stove, and over-full hearts. 

I get it more now, the preparation of having what you need, then also what your family/guests need, and trying to anticipate their wants (popcorn and Neapolitan ice cream anyone lol). I get it now, the lists, and more lists, and super last minute shopping trips. 

If this holiday you are having Thanksgiving in any home that is not your own maybe you could do something (pick 1 or so).

1. Take time and pull your hosts aside and thank them for the meal, the preparation, the effort, and the love.

2. Don't come empty-handed. Flowers, a card, food, a small trinket. Just a little something. That thoughtful gesture will go a long way. These small mannerisms are fading away, but we can bring them back.

3. No phones out while the meal is being eaten. Enough said lol.

4. Get the photos, have the conversations, let love flow. Be inspired by the recent story of Will Smith and Janet Hubert who recently buried the hatchet after a 20+ year bitter feud. Speak in love, act in love, grace and forgiveness. Don't let Election 2020 wreck your family anymore. Take back your family. Invest in your people.

To all my family, I love you to the moon and back, HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

To all my friends, I love you dearly, HAPPY THANKSGIVING!

To all those who are struggling, lonely, fearful, unsure, anxious or mourning. You are NOT forgotten. You can let the feelings come, and you can also release them so that you can press on. You are strong, you are worthy, and you mean a lot to me and so many others! HAPPY THANKSGIVING! 

My Covid Journey- 1 month later

 Hello!

 I wanted to write a final post about this journey with Covid. Again for everyone I meet that has had it, their story has different elements. Also, as a reminder I had a moderate case. I did not have any of the 4 symptoms that would alert you to go to the ER.

 I'll start with a celebration. Today marks 1 month since my positive Covid test results. What.A.Month! Thankfully my only lingering side effects are reduced energy and my savory taste buds are still off kilter a bit.

 I wanted to share some things that helped me on the path to feeling better. Some you can do now as we will enter cold and flu season, to strengthen your immune system. An ounce of precaution is worth a pound of cure.

Here is a list of all the meds and vitamins I took or still take-

*Vitamin C

*Elderberry gummies and capsules (Amazon)

*Vitamin D

*Motrin (or any fever reduction meds)

*Airborne

*Multivitamin (Costco)

*Tessalon Perles (prescribed by my doctor for cough)

*over the counter cough medicine (CF)

*Regular Aspirin ( doctor suggested this for 1 month after a positive COVID test, to reduce chance of blood clots)

Other recovery tips-

*HYDRATION especially water

*Toothbrushes ( I used a new toothbrush every few days, it felt cleaner than brushing with the same germs I was coughing up)

*Wash anything you think might be contaminated (clothes, bedding, I even washed all the rugs in my house)

*Start a very detailed cleaning regiment ( think about everywhere your hands touch often, think about the distance of the particles of a sneeze or cough....clean everything!) Remember good old bleach cleaning was good enough for our grandparents, and still works to this day.

*Get a good thermometer (thermometer covers were so helpful in keeping it sanitary between uses)

Surprises-

*I will not get TMI here, but as you listen and learn your body you know what is normal. I definitely had some abnormal signs that alerted me that I was ill. One was the mucus I was coughing up was brown! The first time I saw that I panicked and called Mel who called our nurse friends. It was a normal sign of infection, but man I was so scared.

*Just how much you will sleep when your body is sick. I am a go-getter, always liking to be busy, but man oh man, I spent days in bed.

* As I recovered I kept thinking about the critical cases. The type of pain you would have to be in to go to the ER. I was really humbled because I could have been another story in the news. Like I said, it has been quite the experience.

* Lastly, the best kind of surprise was the overwhelming love that was critical in my recovery. Just imagine not being able to go out and get anything you need. I live by myself, my parents and sister live in other cities, my boyfriend was sick. And yet, I was provided with every SINGLE thing I needed. I am a testament that God is faithful. My family, church and friends were his literal hands and feet as I recovered. 

As I look back on my sickness, I remember the worst night. It was 3am in the morning and I was burning up, then shivering and achy, and coughing so much. Tossing and turning and feeling like I was going to vomit. And I remembered the Scripture that if you call out to God he will hear you. And so that's what I did. I cried out that I felt so bad, and that I knew he could help me to feel better. I cried out in sickness, and some fear, and just in being so weary. A month later I know, I know with all my heart and spirit that he heard me that night, and he heard all of you that prayed and he delivered healing to my body. To God be the glory!

Psalm 34:17

New International Version

17 The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them;
    he delivers them from all their troubles.

Reflections on my COVID-19 experience

I am writing this down, one because I write to process, and two because there are so many COVID stories out there, and I want to share mine in hopes that someone might learn something that will help them if they experience this illness.

A few facts to start, I know who I got the virus from, and that person knows where they got it from. So at least that is a not a mystery. Also, this is day 9 since I got my official positive test results back, and I am feeling better, getting more energy daily, but still definitely not 100%.

I can't pinpoint the beginning. In all honesty I was worried about someone I love who was not feeling well so I don't think I noticed that I was feeling odd. I do remember my energy starting to lag, coughing, and feeling like I was burning up. I took my temp and it was 97 degrees so I told myself, I was just being crazy and feeling "sympathy illness". One day I also remember ordering pizza, and it looking SO delicious, but it tasted super salty. I remember that's all I could taste was salt, and thinking that was odd.

Well I started to cough more, get more and more tired and weak. I'm a talker but I was avoiding all phone calls because I didn't want to alarm anyone with a coughing fit. These were wet/mucus coughs so I started taking cough medicine.

Then it kind of all hit at once. Total exhaustion, sore throat, no smell or taste, yucky cough, nausea and diarrhea, body ache and chills. I went to get a COVID test. I had already started my quarantine because I knew something was wrong. I have general good health, so I knew this was the worst I had ever felt.

As I waited 3 days for my results the symptoms got worse, I finally told my family and close friends what was going on. After 2 nights of no sleep I called my doctor and I had to advocate for myself,to get some stronger cough medicine. At first they said to take over the counter meds but I had already done that. So I called back in my feverish anger and said, NO, I need something stronger, because I am not sleeping and not eating and I feel terrible.

I got my positive results back on a Saturday, and my parents, family and friends started getting me everything I needed. Soup though I could not taste, unsalted Saltines because even the little salt on Ritz was unbearable, vitamins, drinks, care packages, cleaning supplies, everything. I was so weak and tired, I'd be winded just bringing stuff in from the porch to the living room.

Here is one thing that I tell everyone. Make sure you have a thermometer that works! Mine was old and incorrect and so by the time I got a new one my fever was 101, but I know during those bad days it had to be higher.

So I stayed in, slept a lot, drank liquids because I was feeling so dehydrated, slept more and prayed, not just for me, but anyone at all who was dealing with COVID. Having it definitely increased my understanding and empathy. I will say I had a moderate case, I did not have the symptoms that required going to the hospital, but I definitely was sick.

I started to recover. As the fever left so did the nausea, and I could get some crackers and soup down. Still no taste, but I needed energy. The energy started to come back and I could actually walk to the laundry room without feeling depleted. I was able to talk on the phone more and text. This entire time, I had the most amazing network of loving family and friends, who dropped off everything I needed on the porch. Also, my mom and sister nursed me from afar. Ice cold ginger ale was my very best friend:)

So today is day 9 since my positive test. Almost all of my symptoms are gone or decreasing. I will be at 14 days of official quarantine this Saturday. I have made plans to get the 2 retests I will need to return to work.

I will never forget this situation. I will do another update once I feel all the way "normal" and return back to work etc. I am so grateful for my health and for the loving support that uplifted me when I could not uplift myself. If you start to have symptoms, do some online reputable research (CDC, your state Dept of Health) and go get a test if needed. Also, go ahead now and make sure you have cold/flu meds, a thermometer, and cleaning supplies.

Home: Month 3 Volume 1

Follow me on a 12 month journey, from house to home. This is my space to reflect on the process of becoming a first time homeowner. I can't always promise pictures, or even paragraphs, but I can promise a true look at this season of life, and my exciting purchase.

March, oh March 2020. What a year...I mean month you have been. I am so glad I am making these posts to reflect back on my first year in the house. Here is a recap of important events.

My Home became my Office- If you had told me on January 1, that I and a good portion of America would be working from home, I would have said...umm nope. But in the span of weeks, we all learned more and more about the spreading pandemic of the coronavirus. And so here I sit, and the view into my backyard is lovely and relaxing, and the transition to working at home has gone pretty ok. I miss the interactions, the laughter, and the extra focus working at the office brings. But I am thankful beyond all measure to have a work place (TCC) that has allowed us this option and to still be getting paid. Working from home has many perks but my waistline needs to protest the close proximity to tasty snacks, hahaha:)

Daylight Savings and Being Neighborly- I loved that there has been more light in the evenings. I have been out taking walks in the neighborhood and meeting my neighbors. It's been pretty fantastic! I'm a social girl, and I want to be a good neighbor and have good neighbors:) I've learned about the history of our little street, and probably more than I needed about who owned what house for how long, etc. But I am feeling connected so that is beyond great. I definitely moved to the right place and I am thankful for that. 

Last but not least is the great outdoors and the shed!- Yes, besides my wonderful home, there is also a shed or barn if you ask my mama, on my property. It's a nice size, and March was the month I recruited help to get it started to being useful. When I bought the house, they were supposed to take out the remaining "stuff"in the shed but they forgot and honestly so did I. Anyway, thank goodness for an old friend who does my yard work, he came in his truck and with his brother, took all the "stuff" to the dump. A whole truckload, yuck, I get itchy just thinking about it clutter, and dust and who knows what else. Anyway, it's definitely rustic, and needs some work but I can put outdoor things in it now, so that's a win. Stay tuned for more details on that. 

And just like that, the first quarter of 2020 is complete! Looking forward to what lies ahead, knowing normal life will not be normal for quite a while. 

Home: Month 2 Vol 1

Follow me on a 12 month journey, from house to home. This is my space to reflect on the process of becoming a first time homeowner. I can't always promise pictures, or even paragraphs, but I can promise a true look at this season of life, and my exciting purchase.

The best and brightest part of February in the house, was my 2 housewarmings. Even though it's a short month, I opened my home twice to amazing family and friends. The love, and support made my heart sing. The planning and prepping made me a smidge nervous and irritable. The kind gifts reminded me that I am loved by generous people. But both times fell on perfect sun shiney days, and the house was filled with sun and love and I will always remember the joy of showing off my house:) 

February was also the routine start of bills and grown up things. The blah things of life like insurance, that make the world go round. To stay within my budget, I went back to the drawing board (Excel sheet) and recalculated figures based off of month 1. I was not too far over, though I was over in my electricity bill, but Stephen says that is because I always have on lights in multiple rooms, though I can only be in 1 at a time. I'm a light bright, what can I say:) 

The snake! So I live further out now and expect to see more critters off and on. So this is just to document I saw my first snake. YUCK! I know it's just a part of living in a semi rural area, but still, YUCK! It was your average, garden snake. And thankfully he was dead, rolled over by either a tire, or trashcan wheel....who knows. Anyways I screamed internally when I saw him, jumped back about 5 ft, and had to take a deep breath before I embarrassed myself right there under my car port. Anyway, anyway, whew what an adventure. So my mom who is always ready with a suggestion, recommended some stuff called snack -away. So we shall see how Mother Nature and I mesh. 

Do you hear that? Hammering, muttering, home repair YouTube tutorials. Yep, that's me, learning to do small things around my house. Replacing knobs on the dryer, taking somewhat inaccurate measurements, as I try to fit furniture in like Jenga pieces. But all in all, I give myself an A for  effort and a B- for skill. I think I am so satisfied because between me and the amazing help I have been given, my vision of what I dreamed the house could be, is definitely becoming a reality. 

February flew by so quick. I'll report back at the end of the month March. 

Home: Month 1 vol 1

Follow me on a 12 month journey, from house to home. This is my space to reflect on the process of becoming a first time homeowner. I can't always promise pictures, or even paragraphs, but I can promise a true look at this season of life, and my exciting purchase.

Where it all Began:
 I signed for my house on Dec 18th. Not as scary as I imagined, but definitely the most adult I have felt in a long while. In true Sabrina fashion, that night I had friends over for a "painting party/project night"! And from there the next 2 weeks were like off to the races! Moving and holidaying was quite the combination. It was a holly jolly, packing and snacking good time, and I used the 2 weeks "off" to pack in a ton of things at the house. I readily admit that first week I went to Wal-Mart or Home Depot every SINGLE day, but I've mellowed out now. It's just a lot you need going from a 1x1 apartment to a 3x2 house with a bonus room.

January 1st welcomed 2020, and in my new mindset, I enjoyed time with lifelong friends, then all I wanted was to be home. That's something I was not imagining. Just how much I love to be at my place:)

Adjusting to the house has been pretty smooth! One thing I did not account for was my body adjusting to the nature that surrounds me. There are all types of plants and bushes and critters in my new neighborhood. So I had 2 itchy allergic reactions, before I changed my habits. So now I take allergy meds daily, wear work gloves and long sleeves if I will be out side doing yard work etc. And it's helped a lot!

I have planned my official housewarmings in February, but January started me having small groups and individuals over. It's different hosting in a new space, and so I would find myself frustrated over tiny things like, running out of napkins....just to find a whole package, in a random spot, that I just had forgotten. But I have loved showing my house to friends and family. It's cool seeing their reaction to this dream come true.

To wrap it up, I've developed patterns for cleaning, and bill pay. I've unpacked all but 1.5 boxes. I've not hung too much stuff up on the walls (still figuring that out). I've hammered, and youtubed, and gotten help and new knowledge on keeping my home in tip top shape. One example, is that you need to treat your septic tank once a month with something like Rid-x. Who knew??

So there you go January. Thank you and I look forward to the next 11 months of life.

2019 a review and 2020 a preview

A decade is ending up, and so more than usual I am reading the year in review and also the last 10 years in review of many friends. What a life we are living! You already know, the celebrations and the grief, the pits and the mountaintops. The moments when we are so happy we could cry and the moments we are so sad and frustrated we can't stop crying. And EVERYTHING in between!

Well this post is looking back on 2019, and onward to 2020. I've done these for the past 8 years, so I don't think I need a decade in review, when it's just a few clicks away.

2019, what can I say, but that it was marvelous, exciting, independent, and well-researched!
So many things changed in my life this year....in chronological order.

late February 2019- I paid off my last credit card! I was able to sigh with relief, and shed a few happy tears because I worked and God changed my money habits to deliver me from the burden of debt. It was the biggest weight lifted off my shoulders. I am now proudly consumer debt free! I do have a student loan, but I pay on that each month. I also have another monthly expense, but more on that later:) Oh, and if you have not heard of the Dave Ramsey "baby steps", I would suggest you Google it, dedicate yourself to it, and watch your life change!

May 8th 2019- Stephen and I officially started our relationship! I met Stephen at the end of March, and right away we hit it off. Our shared faith is the biggest factor that makes our love work. We approach life differently in personality, but we mesh in life goals, future vision, and just blending our everyday lives. We both enjoy movies, family,  good food, and quiet times walking in the park or just relaxing together. Stephen is my blessing that I did not think was coming into my life at this point.

October 2019- I started the look and search, and research for my first home. And in late December I purchased it!!! Yay, insert all the applause, happy dance etc. Seriously though, buying my first home is such a huge accomplishment for me. It was not possible without my loving parents, super supportive sister, brother-in-law, Stephen, the best group of friends in the whole world, family, and God who answered so many prayers through the process. I had to trust so many people, and it's very intimidating, but God brought people of good character across my path and for that I am humbled and grateful.

Now onto 2020
Financial Wisdom- Now that I am living in financial freedom, I can carefully look around at the new landscape and explore. Using a credit card again, to get the cash back rewards, but staying in my budget. Seeing how stocks might play into my financial future. And being very open with my financial story so that maybe other, single income, single women might feel safe to ask me questions about the debt-free process, because it's SO worth it.

Settling in my Home- Even as I write this, I had to take a pause to have the repair guy teach me about my breaker box. I am not a complete ditz, but home repair is not my strong point, so I'm taking notes like a professional! Also, as I write, the electric saw is buzzing outside as my handeyman works on replacing baseboards. So yeah, I'm about that "home" life! So, if it's 2020 and you are looking for me, or I'm a little less social, it's because I am a happy homeowner, and still basking in the glow of a dream fulfilled.

Sabrina and Stephen- I won't write much, but I will share that I have a good love in my life. I thank God for what is growing between Stephen and I and I can't wait to live 2020 in a sweet relationship, that also challenges me to grow, and continue to think of others more than myself. Also, when I looked back on last year, I asked you all to pray for my relationship life, thank you, it's working!

Year 35- That's right, the queen of birthdays will be turning 3-5! I celebrate anyway, but this year is a milestone birthday. Hooray, and get ready! I know it's going to be the best ever, and that is saying a lot because I have had some amazing birthdays!!

Brina Bakes- I look forward to continuing to sell cookies in 2020, and also branching out to host cookie decorating parties. Can't wait:)

Work Life- Waiting to see on some things, but stay tuned.

For 9 years I have closed the same way, so here we go:) Maybe your 2020 be full to the brim of joy and peace. 

Now with all of that said I will say this.....2020 is a completely unknown entity. Sure, I know some things but they are so tiny compared to what I have no idea about. The key is to hold fast to God, have faith and grace, love my family and friends, and be the very best Sabrina Maude Stewart that I can be.....that should not be too hard ( I am kidding) it will probably take me 365 days to kind of get it right!

33 was...

It's me, celebrating another birthday. 34 is here, and Happy blessed birthday to me!
I am so thankful for this blog, and though I do not update it often anymore. I love coming back to my old friend and sharing life. I started writing birthday posts (looking back over the year) back when I was turning 25! If you are interested in that post here it is.

33 has been a year! How you might ask? Well let's talk about it for a bit.

33 was...WORK
Oh my oh my! I worked a lot this year. From ending my school counseling job on June 1st and starting my TCC job on June 5th. It was an exciting whirlwind of new experiences. It was something for me, with my elementary background to transition to college. But it has been SO worth it. I truly love what I do, and I am grateful everyday to have found this position that is a match for my skills and personality. I'm so glad that I had the frustrations that led to bravery. I remember having a choice to maybe stay in my comfort zone, and I purposefully prayed and with wisdom made the change. And that is a freeing feeling. I also have worked SHIPT and been selling my decorated sugar cookies!  So like I said, 33 was a year of WORK.

33 was... financial freedom 
After 3 years of change and I do mean a complete overhaul of how I act, think, spend and save money; after 3 years of that I am now consumer debt free!!!! It is ah-maz-ing!!! I still have a student loan to pay off, but no car loan, or credit card debt. Unless you have had to struggle to correct your finances, then it just won't mean as much to you. But when I say that I have a level of freedom and maturity that I have never had in my life. I am in awe, thankful, and blissfully happy with the conclusion of my financial saga!

33 was...dreams of home ownership 
More than any year of my life, this year I dreamed and wished and prayed and hoped about my future home. I have a running memo in my phone with notes and reminders. I have my wish-list (and it's really not that bad) ready. I've already pictured my first Spring and the flowers and plants that will add beauty to my life and living space. It was these dreams that kept me motivated during my season of work. It was these dreams that spurred my financial freedom. I am just now realizing this might be my most in "sync" year in quite a while. Love it:)

Have 34th birthday Sabrina! You really rose to the occasion and I think things will continue to look up, with the grace of God as your guide! I'm proud of you girl!

2018 a review and 2019 a preview

Welcome 2019 (soon)!

Looking back at 2018, a smile lights my face as I think back on the year. Why smile? Oh, there are so many reasons, but here are two that have impacted my life greatly. I smile because God has matured and helped develop my habits. I was able to read/listen to the entire Bible in chronological order! I did not lose focus or give up, or get too busy. I actually did it! And I gained knowledge, awe, reverence, and reminders that I am walking a different path, with a different aim, and far different destination than anything the world might have to offer me.

I also smile, and release a large sigh of contentment because I started a new job in 2018! And it is such a great match for me! I enjoyed the twists and turns of the public school system and I know the help, teaching and counsel I was able to provide for 9 years, was of a benefit to some. But to branch out, and discover a new realm in higher ed, has truly been one of the absolute best parts of 2018!

And so, looking back with gratitude, I stand here at the brand-new, fresh start of a new year! Excited, thankful, and ready..I think, for what a sparkling new year will hold. I'm growing up, so I already know there will be sweet and sour, but I'm realizing it really is your mindset in how you handle the "flavors" of life that makes all the difference. Now, as always, I will preview some parts of a fresh new year. 2019 here we come, be kind please.

2019:

* Financially, I am approaching the finish line of a major financial milestone for me, and while I am giddy and grateful. I am also getting the new goals ready, so that I don't lose focus and drift along. This is the year for determination, and drive!

* People that I know and love will pass away or suffer through illness. Aging is real. Eternity is real. Don't get caught up on what you can see, and forget the Lord who created us all and gives us everlasting purpose. 

* SHIPT- I started this side hustle in October (thanks to Melanie's wisdom), and as I enter a new year, it will be my additional funds for travel and home buying. Yayyyyy! 

* Faithfully, the thought of shining for Christ has come to my spirit a lot lately. I still am praying and seeking to find out how I I can shine and be a bright, positive light to attract others to Christ. 

* Cookies! Branching out and selling cookies to friends and family. And the baker in me is just thrilled about this one right here....maybe this will just be the start of the Brina Bakes empire (kidding, kidding). But seriously, if you are in Tallahassee, look for me to be offering up pretty, and delicious cookies just in time for Valentine's Day!

* Relationship land, I had to kind of regroup in 2018. I will not lie, it is difficult in the dating game, when you know what real love is, and you just can't settle for an imitation. So, sigh, relationship land is something I do desire, but only if it is true and good for me. I am hard-wired for loyalty, and caring but those two traits are not exactly appreciated in the dating world today, so it's kind of "interesting". However, I am going to try and not give up, but embrace courage and hope. If you would like to pray about this one, I would appreciate it:) 

* Turning 34 and continuing to celebrate the gift of this precious life 

* Travel plans for this year....you know I WANT to be traveling a lot....but in the season of preparing for a home purchase, I must do what I NEED to do, not want. So, a Key West trip with the girls, and then cooling my jets. Though I would adore to get to go to DC and see the cherry blossoms in full bloom!! And I would love, love to finally make it Texas and see some dear friends! 

For 8 years I have closed the same way, so here we go:) Love you all!

Now with all of that said I will say this.....2019 is a completely unknown entity. Sure, I know some things but they are so tiny compared to what I have no idea about. The key is to hold fast to God, have faith and grace, love my family and friends, and be the very best Sabrina Maude Stewart that I can be.....that should not be too hard ( I am kidding) it will probably take me 365 days to kind of get it right!