Wednesday, April 25, 2018

32 was...

Can you believe that yours truly will be 33 in a few days?? My birthday is fast approaching and I have a weekend filled with fun planned (of course), but I do think I have not talked about it and dropped hints as much as in previous years (I think....). So as one birthday gets ready to arrive in a flood of goodness. Let's look back at the year that has gone by.

32 was searching....
It was a year of searching and also admitting that I don't hold all the answers. I am searching in the area of work and this year I allowed myself to be brave. I mean, why not Stewart! There I was, always encouraging others, and there I was, not taking my own advice. So I really sat and prayed and looked at my skills and gifts. And I tell you the search has been fruitful. And I think the main thing is that this is the season for change, for a Sabrina. The search is not done, but I know, I just know the answer is going to be awesome!

32 was back to basics....
In my spiritual life, I know that this year was about strength in the spiritual disciplines. Particularly, prayer and Bible reading. It was the year that I finished the book Fervent by Priscilla Shirer. And as I read, I crafted some strong prayers. And I went back to getting on my knees, beside my bed, and praying before I headed off to work. And some prayers were words, and some were sighs, and some were tears, and some were just me, hands open, asking God to help me put aside my will, and embrace his will. Also, during my 32nd year, I got back into Bible reading. The Scriptures are key to Christian living, and over the years, I was good at reading bits and pieces and devotionals, but I had slacked on more purposed reading of God's word. I am so happy to get back to basics in this area, and take prayer and Scripture reading with me into 33. They make my life better and provide me purpose.

32 was "figureitoutable"
I saw something on line, and it said, "Everything is figureitoutable." And you know, I just kinda love that. I love that silly, made-up conglomeration of words:) My mind was busy this year. I'm a counselor, and so both at work and play, I often am actively listening and responding. I sometimes hold the news before it hits the presses. I sometimes, hold the hurts, when people are really struggling. And so this year, I figured it out for others and also for myself. And I'm still figuring it out, if I am honest. But 32 did have this brain doing the work of seeing what thoughts, dreams, and ideas are worthwhile, which needed to be reshaped, and which are just not a good fit, in the life of a Sabrina. 

Happy almost birthday beautiful girl:)  Yeah, that's another thing from 32, easing up on myself, and correcting my self-talk, to be more positive and encouraging!