39 was starting fostering...
I knew a decent amount about foster care. I am a counselor at heart, and Tallahassee has a strong and supportive foster community. Yet, Stephen and I definitely learned SO much in the foster process. There are classes. Homework. Discussions. Paperwork. Fingerprints. Support Groups. Readings. And the list goes on. I could not have done it without Stephen and his loving heart for others. Together we started the training part of fostering. We got our first placement. We were "schooled" on being parents. I am grateful for the journey and what 40 will bring as we continue to foster in love and hope.
39 was work woes...
As we entered January 2025, it became abundantly clear that the new leadership in this country, was and is not on board with supporting students from low-income backgrounds. As government spending cuts loomed, it was the most frustrating thing to see the wealthy be on the attack against the poor. As a grant worker, my job and the work that we do has been belittled and ignored all for the sake of those who already have a leg up, and have the privilege to not even see it. We press on doing the work in the pre-college access space, but even as I type this, I am fully aware that the future of my job rests partly on a man who is proud of his vindictive streak and thinks equity is a cuss word. It will be left to see how it all will shake out. I am preparing for all possibilities.
As we entered January 2025, it became abundantly clear that the new leadership in this country, was and is not on board with supporting students from low-income backgrounds. As government spending cuts loomed, it was the most frustrating thing to see the wealthy be on the attack against the poor. As a grant worker, my job and the work that we do has been belittled and ignored all for the sake of those who already have a leg up, and have the privilege to not even see it. We press on doing the work in the pre-college access space, but even as I type this, I am fully aware that the future of my job rests partly on a man who is proud of his vindictive streak and thinks equity is a cuss word. It will be left to see how it all will shake out. I am preparing for all possibilities.
39 was understanding myself more...
I will truly say that during the 39th year, there were many times that I was able to really reflect on myself. Job opportunities that were not the best fit. Social situations that actually bring joy and not just another thing to add to the list. Even in fostering, learning and making adjustments, for the reality, not just the dream, if that makes sense. I can say, I know myself a lot better. My gifts and my struggles. It feels good.
39, you were a teacher in many ways. Reminding me to step back and check my lack of faith and worries. You also made me smile, increased my friendships, and added to my determination. Not bad. 40, you can be a banner year. A milestone year. I'm ready!
39, you were a teacher in many ways. Reminding me to step back and check my lack of faith and worries. You also made me smile, increased my friendships, and added to my determination. Not bad. 40, you can be a banner year. A milestone year. I'm ready!
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